1st 2 month

I know.. I just post about my 'crazy action' about an hour ago. But actually, I've been in that site for about 2 month. Yeah... I just to busy to write it down here. *sigh*

So... what happened this past month?!?

Here we go...

So far.. I got 8 messages on my inbox. The age range is between 30 - 73. Yeahh... I got 73 yo man interested in my profile. Only ALLAH knows why. Anyway... I didn't reply to all of them. I mean, I do reply their message but I'm not always said yes to their intention. First, I think it's not appropriate to answer introduction to more than a man at the same time. After all in most profile, we all were in that site for serious relationship. So I can only answer to 1 man at a time and see where it goes. 

Now... the question is.. How is it going so far??

Fortunately, I still have no luck at all ^_^. So far, I was talking with 3 man. Yes .. 3. But I do stick to my rules. One at a time. The 1st one is a widowed journalist with a daughter. He's soooo.... I don't know to explain. Well.. He message me first, then I reply. Then no answer for a week. When he finally reply it again, his mail was shocking. His answer is just like I already agree to have relation with him. So for me it's kinda shocking and bit scary. You may laugh at me coz being so serious. But it's just my nature. Especially for things related to my future. Anyway.. I mailed him again and try to explain things, and yet.. his reply is still the same. Even worst, he said that he'll come to visit me after finishing his assignment. Arrgghh!! So crazy. My last mail to him was simple. I just said that I'm confused to his mail especially to his plan on visiting me. Anyway... he hasn't reply anything yet. 

2nd man was seems nice. He send simple n funny message, we chat for few days and during those days, he's telling me about his good intention to have serious relation with me. Kinda comforting actually. I mean, he never say anything too sweet. He just telling me his serious intention, his family background and what he's searching from a woman. That seems normal, right?! Well.. things turned up side down so quickly as soon as I mailed him about my condition. About my parent separation, about me who still have no degree and more. Am I sad? Well.. a little. But honestly, it's not the rejection whom makes me sad. It's about the fact that he's not brave enough to say it directly to me (whether through mail or chat). He just disappear. Puff just like that. He didn't mail me back, and his ym always in offline mode. Only God's know whether he's truly offline or just appeared invisible. And by the way.. I can't see his profile on that site also. I just don't get it. I mean.. he said  that he's a police but yet he's action really not showing him as a gentleman. *sigh again*

The 3rd man... maybe I'll tell you some other time. 

I admitted, these experience almost make me fall and questioning myself. Thanks to Allah... I get over it soon and ready to next journey. 

Well... just like they say...

Love....

Something called 'Ikhtiar'

People said that if we want something in our life, then we have to try everything we could to make it happen. And I did. I even try things that out of my imaginary. Things that I would never do normally, but I did it anyway. In my country, we called it Ikhtiar. 

The craziest thing that I did, is to join a Muslim Introduction Agency (Site). Yes!! I joined a site  to find a future husband for myself. *sigh*. Honestly, this is so not me. But a friend of mine encouraging me to do this since one of our friend found a success and finally got married few month ago. 

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So here I am, registering my name and sitting behind a computer searching for my future Imaam. Still can't believe it, but hey!! It's the 21th century after all. I really don't know what to expect here. Just crossed my fingers and hoping for the best. 

PS. I registered few weeks ago and will post about it soon.